Seems like as good a time as any

it's been awhile and many things have changed, as they tend to do with the passing of time.
good and bad things have happened between the last post and now-im sure not unlike others. maybe it is the approaching holiday season or just the series of events in the last few weeks, but i am feeling very grateful for everything i have.
i guess i could go on and on about things that aren't positive, but, right now it seems inappropriate.
life changes are difficult sometimes.

on a strange note-i picked up some Yogi Peach Detox tea at the store the other day (on a whim) and find that it is actually pretty good. i dont care for herbal teas at all, nor do i even care for some of the ingredients in this tea, but they blend so well together. Even if it's not beneficial, i think i will keep buying it.

oh wow, even better. when i went to the site to link to the peach detox, i saw that they are giving away a 3 tea variety sample pack. yay! Click here for the link to the free Yogi tea samples.

busy busy busy

who isnt right. but i did need to write and tell you all that i have found a new cd that i love, if you like hope sandoval, its much like that. check her out.

jessica lea mayfield-link to her myspace page

New bookmarks, yay!

So I made these bookmarks out of leftover fabric scraps that I had that I thought were too small to do anything with. I am so glad that I found a use for them.
I think they are really cute!

What dreams did you have as a kid?

What did you want to be when you grew up? What did you picture your life as in the future?

I was reading something about Gwen Stefani the other day that said she always imagined herself being a housewife and having kids, that was what she pictured her perfect future as being.

It made me think again about what I pictured my life as being when I was younger. I always saw myself as traveling around the world. Not necessarily going on vacations around the world-i never thought of these things as vacations. But rather, living in different places for periods of time, or being in different places for the purpose of working or helping others.
I remember when i was in school (undergrad) telling people I wanted to be a flight attendant and people would laugh. But really, I always thought it would be a fantastic job. It paid enough to pay bills, you got to travel, and an added benefit to the job would be free travel. I mean, all I ever really wanted was a job that would allow me to fulfill that dream. I wasn't concerned about money or kids or getting married, just about how to get to where i wanted to be.

now i am wondering, how can i attain that. i mean, it is still a dream of mine, but i wonder now, how much is that a dream of mine? if this is what i really want, then i can find a way to make it happen. and i also wonder, how many people are out there just floating around living their life and going through the motions as opposed to living their dream or finding a way to live that dream.

Chelsea Handler is inspiring

well, i think it's been awhile since i posted. one is because i have been busy being miserable with myself, writing, and generally being miserable with myself.
anyhow, i got a book in my last amazon.com order that i ordered because it was on my list of "recommended" items. i read a few pages, put it down, read a few pages, put it down. then i read a few pages a day or so ago and read the rest of the book.
i have to say that the book was just what i needed to lift my spirits. i dont watch a lot of television but understand that chelsea handler has a television show and that shes really funny-but i havent seen it. but based on reading my horizontal life, i must get her other book that's out.
i tell you, the book made me laugh, a lot. but on a side note-i think she has inspired me to have a better time in life. i think im in the same state that she finds herself in during most of the book-you should read the book, it's hilarious.

Haagen-Dazs-Sticky Toffee Pudding

so the point of this blog is to be a place for me to have therapy. therapy where its only one sided, no other view to contend with, the amount of reflection required is dependent upon what i decide i want and when i want, its at the time and place i want it, when i want it, and in the form i want it, not scheduled once a week for an hour-like i really schedule my moods.
i am particularly in a writing mood. i wondered a few things, the first of which is-wow, there are people with a glimpse into how my mind works now.
anyways, i thought about this robe i am wearing and it triggered a memory. i remember about what year i bought the robe, where it was purchased, and the person that was with me when i made the purchase. it got me thinking a few things. first-what is it about memories that suddenly come back-those that are seemingly meaningless. then, i thought about how they really arent that meaningless if we set and reflect on them.
i have two takes on the memory of this robe.
1. it makes me think about how if i have memories and specific emotions attached to items OR if i have memories that tend to elicit memories that i dont want to have, then i should get rid of those items.
2. it makes me think about how stupid i was for spending that much money on a robe. all i was looking for was a robe to wear when i got out of the shower. but i didnt have a clue about how to do that, clueless. i was already 17 years old. how is it that a seventeen year old girl doesnt know a thing about where to even begin to go to buy a robe. how is it that my thought was that i needed a robe, so i needed to drive an hour to the galleria to victoria's secret just so i could get a robe. and that whatever selection they had in there was what i had to choose from-cause of course, no one else sold robes-where else would i go? and of course, what 17 year old girl doesnt require an $89 robe? i mean, that much money for a robe now is ridiculous-and its what, 13 years later.
now mind you, i realize i still have the robe and so if you divided up the cost over the years it seems like i got a bargain. but, come on, that wasnt the point.
so, it makes me think, where in the crap was my female role model? shouldn't i have had more of a female role model in my life? was i really that completely without guidance?
i know, its just a robe, but the thing is-it's made me think about things. i dont come to these conclusions based on one incident alone. i come to these conclusions based on the cumulation of events over my life.
so now what?
i lay here on the couch, therapying away, in a robe that triggered a small opening of the gate. its too bad all that happened before i could blog about how good that ice cream was i had tonight.

Phew, sigh of relief

ok, so i feel much more balanced today, phew. while i was at michael's yesterday, i picked up this pack of 8 photo cards with envelopes for $1.00. They are really cute, I'm surprised I would buy something that cute, especially given my current moods. Anyway, thought I should add something cheery here.

I turned in my work today, and fingers crossed, it will be liked. Worrying about it won't help me so, I think I'll just work on some stuff that has to get done regardless of the outcome. In the meantime, maybe I will be able to refocus the next few weeks and come out of the gates at the end of the month at full speed-ready to tackle anything. let's just not crash.

J crew is having their extra 20% off sale again! yay!

Enjoy an extra 20% off sale items!
Coupon Code: EXTRA20

ends Sunday September 28

and don't forget-they don't really advertise this but you can get a 15% discount on jcrew purchases online and in store if you are in college. To use this online, you need to call them and they will apply it to your order. So, if you are in school you get the 15% off plus the extra 20%, yay!

how many lives do we lead?

how many lives do we lead? i am thinking i have about 2 or 3. some people more but i bet a lot of people have more than one, at least more people than one might think.

tonight i am not leading my current (known to everyone) life, i am somewhere else psychologically, have been since this afternoon.

i am pretty sure that i am just pretending im not living the life im living.

i am out here if you cant sleep.

Lotus Flower?

Let's get some photos up

Murad-Skin Perfecting Lotion

Ok, I think I am loving this stuff. I know I wasn't going to post today but wanted to do this before I forgot. I have oily skin, definitely prone to break outs when stressed. I have used so many different moisturizers, clinique, prescriptives, clarins, olay, ponds, ddf, md pericone, christian dior, and who knows what else. but i got a free sample of this at sephora around christmas and it was just enough to give me a try of it.

i went back a couple of weeks ago and got enough of a sample to last a few weeks so i could really give it a try. its been a few weeks now and I love it! it is totally lightweight, not drying at all, moisturizing, but somehow keeps my skin from not being so oily. plus, i think its got all that good skin care aging stuff in it, retinol and aha/bha complex (whatever that is). but i do know about the retinol. so if you have skin like mine and continue to spend years and years looking for a decent moisturizer-here you go-try it out and get a sample.

disclaimer: i dont work for sephora or murad or anyone else to where i might benefit promoting this product.
Sephora-Murad Skin perfecting Lotion

Tiffany's Celtic Heart

So, I got my necklace in the mail yesterday and I love it! I am wearing it today in hopes that it will help bring me luck and protection. This is among my, love it stuffs!

Today really has had its ups and downs

Part 1

It's been a long few days and I am feeling tired-much more tired than normal. The day started out with me in a rush but then calmed down (or calmed rather). I had noticed the sun shining down so brightly, the light was so pretty. Then I saw this tree, so perfectly placed and sitting there as if it was born to be there in that spot and that spot was made just for that tree. And I saw the light shining down on it as if something magical was happening. I paused and looked at the tree, with the sun shining down, and kind of smiled inside. I spent a few moments looking at the tree and walked away. But I kept coming back to the tree, maybe 3 or 4 times, because I really was mesmerized by it (and no I had not had any drugs or mind altering substances). So I took a picture of it, to kind of try to capture the moment. From a semi-objective perspective, it's not a good picture. But from my perspective, it brings me back to being mesmerized by its power.

oops, I was again so mesmerized by that picture that I forgot to finish writing.

So-on goes the day and as I was leaving that area, where I saw the tree, for that day, I couldn't help but being drawn to another image. An image that was in such stark contrast, psychologically, to that of the tree. This flower growing and blooming out of a fence-the fence having split the flowers and its growth. How to look at this situation? Are the flowers having to fight against the strong fence? Is it that it has joined with the fence and is now part of the fence? Was this just poor landscaping? Or something else?

Tonight

My ultimate favorite song to listen to for some about 8 months now has been
Beethoven's Piano Sonata #14
I can listen to it repeatedly

I have listened to Fur Elise for my entire adult life whenever things haven't been going well and I listen to it repeatedly

I just played it and it reminded me that this song helps
and yet
I can't help
but be drawn to listening to Sonata #14
instead

Every gal should have a sun umbrella

Another post to add 9/13 10:36 am

Good old fashioned pen to paper now-or rather pencil to paper.

So now I'm not only not connected to the internet, but I don't have the computer. So I'll just just a note down.

Every gal should have a sun umbrella. And not just any plain old umbrella will do. It must be an umbrella that says something and not one that says, I just had this in my car for a rainy day. But one that says I thought about what this umbrella says about me AND that it protects me from the sun.

Here was mine for today. I wonder what it says about me?

Bags I want

I cannot give you what you seek

Good Morning everyone. I hope that everyone is having a fabulous day so far. It is hump day and I definitely feel like that is an accurate metaphor for how I feel about my life right now. So many things are coming together, so many things need to be attended to, important details, things that impact my life and others and not just for now, but for the future.
Sometimes the things that you want so desperately, and long for so desperately, just don't come to fruition. And quite frankly, it may have absolutely nothing to do with me-it just is.
I don't particularly like to reference movies or TV but sometimes find it helps to explain or better describe a point. In one of the Lord of the Rings movies (they were running them back to back the other week) I remember the guy (the one that's supposed to be the "real king" or some such thing) turning to the woman and saying "I cannot give you what you seek." And he gets on his horse and rides off. To me, that is how I feel sometimes-I am the one hearing the words "I cannot give you what you seek." And quite honestly, that is a hard pill to swallow.

An accidental finding-Tweezerman

I am starting to feel like with every "mynewtherapy" post I should balance it out with a "Things I love or Craft" post. So, here is another thing that i LOVE. I was perusing the drugstore.com site for who knows what when I saw this little thing advertised on the page that other people had bought. Hmm, let me check this out. Based on the reviews-solely based on the reviews-I purchased this item which first, I didn't know existed, but second, would never have looked for to buy. I have to say, I really do like it and think that it adds a lot to my life. The only thing about it is that I don't really use it for pimples, really just blackheads-as that's mostly my problem. If you want to check it out click here.

Disclosure: Please note, I am not affiliated in any way with any of the companies whose products I place here, so, I have no financial incentive in this. I just want to pass on information that might be useful to someone else.

Time to get some craft on today-Key Fobs

Well, some of the ribbon I ordered came in yesterday along with part of the material I need to make the key fobs. All I need now is the cotton webbing which I plan on picking up today when I head out later. I want to go ahead and get one made because I have someone in mind that I would like to give one to on Monday in appreciation for her and her work. I hope she likes it.

Anyway-I learned about how to do this from my current favorite creative blog (link on the right side of my page) How About Orange. But the original instructions came from JCaroline Creative who has a tutorial for this. Click here for the tutorial .

After I get my first one made I'll post a pic, at least it if turns out decent (fingers crossed).

Update: I made two of these tonight. Hancock's didn't have 1 1/4 in. cotton webbing so I just bought the one inch kind. I also used stitch witchery instead of the heat n bond. I actually think I like the looks of the keyfob when using the 1 in webbing instead. The only thing is the clasps I have are 1 1/4 in. so it looks a little different. I'm not sure if I like this or not, I may end up going to the 1 1/4 in. webbing and buying it off the internet or something.

The hardware is actually nickel, they just look gold in the pic.

Craft project-Shoe Bags

Growing up as I did, we always used cloth bags to place our shoes and underwear (separate bags of course) in when we packed up to go somewhere. I have since wondered why others don't do this, I mean, who wants the bottoms of their shoes that have touched who knows what, touching the inner contents of their bag? Certainly not me. Fortunately, I found this lovely tutorial for making a shoe bag on Martha Stewart's site. This project is certainly for beginners but is a useful thing for all. I didn't sew the inner part where it keeps the shoes apart cause I'm lazy and don't really care if my shoes bang up against each other. Also-I didn't use velvet, I just used whatever material I liked and instead of a satin drawstring cord, I just used cute ribbon. Hope you enjoy!

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Clean and Clear Blotting Sheets-Love them!

Ok, I just remembered how absolutely fantastic these blotting sheets are and feel the need to tell anyone that doesn't already know about these that they need to try them.

I have tried a bunch of different blotting sheets because I have really oily skin. I've used the ones with powder, the ones without, the ones from Japan, cheap ones, expensive ones. And I have found, by far, that these Clean and Clear ones are my absolute favorite. I think it's mostly because of the texture of the sheets. They aren't like all of the other blotting papers where they are like sheets of thin paper. They are more like a very thin latex type sheet and really, they don't smear your make up (if you wear any) and they do a fabulous job at effectively absorbing the oil.

No, I am in no way affiliated with the company that makes these but I wanted everyone to know about it. I hope to post some more random products that I love and want to share with everyone.